listening to ooioo:: ????

will update with a nice big blog when i get back from the red animal war show... promise!

listening to 5ive style:: playful sounds for hostile grounds

what's up with this blog??? where did the archives go??? *sigh... i gotta go.

listening to takako minekawa:: dymaxion

??? where did neu come from??? haha... hey neu! well... today is a bit better

current ego= %50

well... actually i don't have a lot of time to update this blog... i'm about to head over to neu's place. i think he wants to finish a song that he was working on. i don't know where i want to go with my song. lately i've been wanting to work on a different song anyway...a different direction. i think it's ok if i keep starting over, as long as i get further with each try, then at least i'm getting somewhere in the long run. no deep thoughts lately... just pre occupied with the most trivial of day to day things. *yawn...

it's "muy" not "muey".

-neu

by the way "wrrrrrr... blip blip... wa wa wa wa wa... vrizzzzzzshnkashnka" -- is that a nobukazu referrence?? I'm confused.

listening to bs2000:: side to side

argh... so weak today

currently 20% ego

where did this come from? no energy, too hard to do anything??? weird. i was doing so well too. i'm supposed to do things. i should get some new pants. that's what i'll do. go to the thrift store and get my clothes on... errr... dress on! haha, right. you know, i've been going on moc lately and reading the girls things-- just like a stalker, i know, i know. but why would they put their info up if they weren't bored/lonely/looking for some random person to chat with??? i would put my info up, but i don't have the all important self pic :(( too bad for da ladies. who can resist cute punk/alterna/emo/eccentric/dorky girls (any combination or just one)? i decided to IM one last night, too my surprise she was quite young (very fuzzy picture, hard to tell). anyhow, it was hard to talk to a random person though, cuz i don't really have anything to say. i suppose i should just start spouting off about my life, but that can't be right. jason has some sort of method going. start with "pssst" and just keep saying snappy things and quick comebacks. i suck at snappy things and quick comebacks. i have to get into the mood. i have to feel out a situation, before i start just going at it. why is so warm in my room and so cool elsewhere in this apartment. where the hell is my resume??? i'm supposed to find it, find the number of the technical apple one temp agency and then call, email it to whomever answers and badabing badaboom, dallas techjob. my problem is that for two months i would have to save up enough money to move to dallas. and that means that i would have to drive my car back and forth for two months. i've done it before, but my car just would not survive. it sucks enough as it is, driving back and forth to arlington (20-25 minutes hwy) where all my friends are. brian and josh are in dallas though, so it'd be cool to hook back up with them. i just don't get to hang out with them anymore. i'm doing laundry, i guess that's productive. but there are more important things to do... maybe there's an online list of ppl looking for room mates in dallas??? hmmmm... gotta czech it out. any suggestions??? no one reads this anyway. maybe i screwed myself with this online journal thing. early on i wrote something about what kinds of girls i like... so now if i show this to a girl they might get the wrong idea.
ok... so here's the skinny on 7san's girl weakness

first some things that will automatically turn any girl into "someone bd (bd= 7san= nick= me) would never try to date or get into a relationship with:"
- i meet them online: this is a big one especially if you're reading this... "online" duh...
- they have a boyfriend and are not polyamorous
- they just want a friend (cool, cuz i like friends)

maybe i shouldn't list the things that bd would like to find in a girlfriend. then again why not? who cares?

the not very thought out TURN ON list:
- musically interesting: generally, if they like things you don't find on the radio or tv, then kudos to them
- world domination plans: i'm a sucker for these
- love for robots: i love robots, androids, and moody little machines
- a taste for independent and/or foreign film: wong kar wai, akira kurasawa, and actually i'm kind of inexperienced with name dropping in this catagory... so i won't. i don't like french films though, i've never seen a good one.
- dork: video games, science, computers, even anime
- shy: maybe i shouldn't like them shy, cuz there's little or no chance of ever talking to them
- artist/musician: i love to create
- passionate about something
- cynic: too much of this can be annoying though
HERE ARE SOME OF THE SUPERFICIAL THINGS
- girl cuteness: ya it's shallow... so what... if a girl takes time with fashion nuveau and accesorizes with eccentric details, then dammit i notice! and i like it! so there...
- nerdy glasses: it's a weakness i have
- asian: girls in japan are irresistable to me
- emo/ punk/ alternaTeen: it's all good
- hair clips in short hair (anywhere from face length hair to shoulder length)
- big clunky watches on demure wrists
- looks fine without make up
- old skool sneakers
- hoodies
- hello kitty things: cuz kitty san is just so cute and cuddly

ya, so i think i get in trouble for the "asian" thing. it should be known that none of these things are things that i think are "required" in a girl i like. they just help. plus, when i randomly talk to girls online, i hate when they think that i'm hitting on them. i make fun of my friends for the "online girlfriends" they've had. i think it's spooky and odd to do that. and if you remember the "i meet them online" from above. if i've met you online, then there is ABSOLUTELY NO WAY I WOULD TRY TO GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU!!! other than friendship.

listening to flipper's guitar:: slide

the computer is back! ya!

currently %70 ego and dropping

lack of sleep-- very anti-ego. not good. *yawn, ok, i have a lot of catching up to do tomorrow. resume must get to temp agency. must schedule appt's for apt hunting in d-town, and turn in applications at arlington haunts and dives, oh! and laundry is muey importante! ( =_=)zzZZZ time for this monk to turn in.