ah yes... op ivy... brings back memories. i haven't listenned to this for like 2 years, but i somehow still know the words. where did lars go wrong? with rancid that is. cuz rancid sucks! always has. i just pissed a lot of ppl off. you know what? blink 182 sucks too, so there!
anyway... i went to bed relatively early last night... around 3.30. have been sleeping regularly at around 5.30-6.00... so it was pretty early for me. so i thought i was going to wake up around 10 and be all productive and shite. but to my surprise the alarm clock said 1.25 when i rolled over. i can't believe it! not that it's like i had a lot to do today... and i'm not late for anything. i DID want to try to do some shite for my car, but now that i think about it, i better just drive around illegally until i close out one of my accounts. i applied at another 17 jobs today... i'll probably not get any call backs again. this sucks! recessions suck! the president sucks!

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still making a song, but i got some sleep :)

it must be nice to have something to do. well, the weekend is here, but not for me. weekends don't exist when you do absolutely nothing all of the time. well, i'm trying to be more productive, more creative. and although i think i would like to do something this weekend, the thought of hanging out with friends is not so appealing to me lately. i think i just want something new. i'm burnt out on everything. reason software is overwhelming. i'd like to play around with some of the sampling capabilities, but unfortunately i don't have a nice soundcard on my machine, especially not a card designed for recording. there's a mic in line, but that's not exactly the highest quality... hmmm... fuck it. i'll have to use it.

ok kids... nick tries for his own "style". i'm not sure how to approach this really. i always thought the creative process would be the same audably as it is visually, but i'm mistaken in that respect. the music i'm making though... i could never perform. it's "studio" music. i make and that's it... it's made. of course, making it is the problem. i listen to a lot of music. and sometimes i have a lot of melodies in my head... sometimes i have other ppl's stuff in my head... sometimes i'm remixing other ppl's stuff in my head. you get the idea. with art, i'm comfortable enough with all the "tools" that i'm not thinking about what i'm doing in the motorskills department. i have something in my head and blam, my hands do it. but with music, i have to think of everything. and there's so much to it that i get lost in the storm of possibility. maybe i should pigeon-hole what i can work with and then slowly branch out. i've learned a lot about sound and hw to manipulate it, but not so much about structure. and that's what interests me now.

what few things i've done structurally first, and then effects and post production last... i'm satisfied with that stuff. but then, i'm missing out on a lot of other stuff. cuz i've also found that if i futz with something long enough... if i tweak, and send and return, and filture, and oscilate, bend, poke and prod... eventually i come up with a wholly catchy and quirky new sound sometimes... and that could be the basis to a song completely. i believe i have a nack for making very simple melodies.

right now i'm more interested in what i think of as the conversation. two or more instruments trading off their melodies in a kind of conversation. each one progressing and responding to the other... or at least it would seem that way. accents... i'm interested in coming up with unexpected sorts of ambience that are somewhat irradic. and definitely melodies that take more that 2 measures to progress. i can think of some songs i like where there's a really nifty walking bass line and it just goes on and on for like 16 measures, before repeating or some that are just constantly evolving each time through and then they build up to a really nice transition. i want that! that's how i feel. like i'm a kid in a muisc store... only in this store you can get techniques and knowledge on how to do things... and i'm sampling all of this music... and i'm yelling out unappropriately loud "ooOOO! i want that!!!", cuz i have headphones on and i'm not sure how loud i'm talking. but in all modesty, i know i'm not as bad as i think. in fact i hear some things i've done and i think "hey! I did THAT?!?!"... but then i know i could never do it exactly the same again. and then there's the observance on the matter of the reader and the writer, the specter and the artist, the listener and the musician:

there are always ppl who are producing things... and ppl that are examining and disecting and reviewing their product. i believe the artist is wholly unaware of the complexity of his own work sometimes... or at least the complexity of the finished product. i remember something i heard about walt whitman. something about a poem he wrote. he was answering questions from a class of lit students and they asked him why he repeated a line in one of his famous poems... it went something like "it's a cold cold night and i have a long long way to go." i probably have no clue as to what it said... but he wrote it twice at the end of a poem. so these academic literary majors had been discussing, plottin' and schemin', their views on the mechanics and meanings and intentions of walt's poems-- and they thought those lines might have some significant importance because of their placement and repition. in truth, walt said that it really was cold, he really did have a long way untill home, and he wrote it twice because he couldn't think of something to rhyme with it. anyhow... this just goes to show that the artist makes things probably just to make them. it's the other people that complicate it and make it more than it is. so if i just make some music that i'm happy with, and come up with some new and interesting methods and have fun learning it all, i'm sure there will be someone out there that will read into it more than i would have ever anticipated. maybe my song will get stuck in there head and fuck them up when they're trying to find their own style.

i write so much that i forget where i was going with all of this. ummm... i'm still trying to make a song.

makin' some muzak SUCKA!!!

fuck! fuck! FUCK!!! i can't sleep! argh! what the hell is going on here!?!?! effing this and that... graaaAAAARRRR!!!

i was lying down, eyes shut... relaxed but not going anywhere. i started thinking about teaching english and living in japan. the dj english teacher! and i would hang out in shibuya and my students would see me out there and say "gaerlan-sensei what are you doing here?" and then i would say, "i'm opening for buffalo daughter tonight.". and they would just look at me really confused. then i'd bust out my turntables and mpc2000 with all of my synth samples ready... and effing rawk the house!

well, anyway, i was thinking about what kind of music i would play... and it's fucking keeping me from sleeping! argh! i have to write something and i have to do it now! fuck sleep! i'm getting something to eat... and i'm going to fucking compose! my hands are shaking right now, i'm so pissed!

fuck! fuck!! FUCK!!!

listening to tarwater:: all the ants left paris

everyone i meet and everyone i know, seems to have everything "together". i'm feeling so blah now.

i'm such a dork. i read my entries and i come off like a badly written thesis paper. i don't think of cool things to say. i don't think of cool things. i'm not cool.

i think for that one moment back then,,, i was cool. but now i sit around like an old man thinking of his glory days. there's more to life than this. i know i'm caught up in now. in surviving. i hate that. i don't like surviving. it's not living... just animalistic and simple.

maybe you're as real as me,
maybe i can live with that.
maybe i need fantasy.

rivers-- you're a genius!

listening to buffalo daughter:: sky high

i usually have music playing in my room, even if no one is here. i like to walk into a nice atmosphere :)

current thought resolution= 33% pretty sad

ok... so no one can read this yet, but i have to get my arse in gear! i have to move soon, change my address... and make songs under the kubrick name! i want to actually have a few songs to put up on a website. i noticed that escalator records is accepting mix tapes. wow! that would be rad! if i got on that label... goose bumps. haha... unfortunately i lack a few choice pieces of equipment... namely- synth ( too many to list ), couple of technics mk-1200's, mixer, a decent sound card for the computer, and the all important akai mpc2000xl... i really really really want one o those and they're starting to show up under a thousand! wow! i'm conflicted though. cuz i could get some certifications (mcse, unix, linux, ccna, maybe some programming cert's) and then go corporate and afford all these things, but it would mean sacrificing my ideals... like actually finishing and continuing school, and i remember corporate america, and overtime... i would be very burnt out and probably not feel like making music or art anymore. ultimately it would suck and i don't think it would be worth it. still, there's a part of me that says "oh just do it for a year and then get out after you get what you want."... i don't know... extra money, and an easy lifestyle... seems all too complacent to me. i was thinking the other day that there is a need for more rebelious political organizations. what does it really take? just a bunch of like-minded ppl with high ideals and a drive to spread a message. it's all really quite scary (yes, i think of politics among other things... how boring eh?) if you think of it. it's like there was an evolution of how to keep a civilization under the influence of power. at first, there was a tribals system... where grouping and organizing meant a better chance of survival. then there was / is religion... which, sadly, is still a force to keep people sedate and following and also if you think about it, makes ppl comfortable with the mindset of being ruled under a higher power. this gave rise to the slave / master system. then there's the monarchy system... which is just a direct mirror of the religious system (just look at the catholic church!). fascism and dictatorship didn't come directly after this, but it's just another incarnation of it under more extreme circumstances. the problem with these, is that eventually the majority (working class) get's peeved enough to overthrow the few ppl ruling. it's happened more times than i could count throughout history. then there's communism... which actually has NEVER existed... at least not the marx concept of it. what communism is today, is actually socialism and oligarchism and there's another term that means military rule... well anyway it's not communism-- that's for sure. and of course socialism, oligarchism, and that other one... are really just tributaries of fascism anyway. ok ok ok ... so like i said these all are weak cuz eventually the government grows weak and the ppl revolt. i think all governments have only one goal...and that is to control and manipulate and to survive in that role.

but just as religion got more complex and reshaped itself into something agreeable... just look at the evolution of religions across the world. eventually the ones that don't sacrifice ppl and have vengeful gods... only those remained. even christianity in the old testament, god is someone to be feared, but in the new testement he's buddy jesus! and everyone is all hunky dory and love him and shite! where was i? oh ya, ummm... democracy! the problem with all of those other goverments/ruling classes (same thing) is the more obvious imbalanced distribution of resources and power among citizens. democracy takes care of this... at least early on. i truly believe the founding fathers were luminaries... especially for their time period. but it's all changed. what the hell is the electoral college for anyway? and george washington was actually very very very opposed to having political parties. he thought all politicians should be independent of party affiliations. the basic structure of our gov is not that bad actually... there are some nice checks and balances. but capitalism has overshadowed democracy... and greed is everywhere. who is the real power in the world now? the USA or the WTO? my money is on the WTO ( pun intended ). here is an organization who decides not only who get funds appropriated, but they regulate or draw out their own regulations on how they see fit to use and distribute world resources. like effing loansharks... and there are protests, but does it matter? no! cuz we're not a nation moved by democracy. it's corporate america! big business rules everything... especially with republicans around. i'm not taking any sides, but i find it interesting that a group like republicans can stay in power. it's because of complacency. a lot of ppl say, that if you vote then you can change things. not true, cuz you're still voting for a group of ppl going for the same goal under two different visages. this country is too big... that's one of the problems. there are so many issues, that little gets done. we're cumbersome. also, there really isn't a seperation of church and state... some states even have bible study classes... wtf! i don't care about what other ppl believe, but i hate hate hate religion! i don't know if i agree with drastic means as a way to promote change, but i can understand the logic of some of the more radical activists. yes, i mean timothy mcveigh... the government has just filed me as soon as i publish this. i'm sure the NSA has logged me, and checked my background and a file has started in the FBI... or maybe it's been there for a while. in actuality, i think i'm just behaving like a citizen for the future... or like a citizen our founding fathers envisioned... constantly questioning the motives of those who rule, independently thinking, ready to act on what i beleive. well... since the NSA, FBI, CIA or who ever is cataloging this, it should be mentioned that i am nonviolent and believe heavily in what ghandi represented. which is more dangerous than violence, i think. if i could stop commerce by enlightening the workers who run everything i would. of course, ghandi did fail in one respect. he met his goal, but didn't have a plan for the future... and as soon as brittain was out, the uneducated stupid followers were left with their petty disputes and it ripped the country apart. we have some pretty petty fucking disputes in this country as well. but note, that it does not rip us apart (segway is coming, cuz i got way off tangent again). this is all because of complacency. americans believe that their vote counts (it doesn't). they believe that if they rally together, then they can accomplish something... possibly yes, but not where it matters. politicians to a commendable job on diverting the attention of americans to trivial and banal matters... usually things dealing with morals. and in these trivial matters, americans have a vote on whether or not we act.
war is the prime example here... plain fact is that there are always wars in the world... at all times. it's just that most of the time we're not made aware of it. america only notices wars that effect our profitability. politicians make sure never to make it that kind of issue though. it's always a "human" reason... this governement over here is murdering ppl and they're corrupt and immoral... see? and then the ppl say "oh ya! they're evil... let's get 'em!". how predictably sad. like effing lemmings! well it's the same here in the USA with how things are run. i remember ralph nader actually had some good points in his campaign.. and in a perfect world he would have won the election. but ppl don't ever read about the candidates or what they represent. the truth is that nader was going after a serious problem with government... it's structure... it's fuel... it's corruption. he was trying to seperate the business from politics. meanwhile the other candidates tout their views on the stupidest things... which are actually the "biggest" concerns in america. like taxes, or abortion, or crime... these are all really really trivial. what else? hmmm... well, i can't remember, i'll need another election. oh ya! the white house scandal with the clinton / lewinsky thing... c'mon! how completely irrelevant all of that was, but i guarantee you that was the only reason bush won. and bush is a fucking bumbling puppet! if the government decided to just get rid of social security (not important to me), then what would ppl actually be able to do about it? if they decided to raise taxes and never increase minimum wage... what then? they can keep chipping away at small personal freedoms... and america becomes more and more complacent. for the most part everything important that the government DOES do, is out of the hands and/or knowledge of the citizens.

unlike other fascist incarnations... american democracy is not so blatant. instead of ruling with and iron fist... it's playing mind tricks... it's training it's citizens slowly. i would say that america is the most powerful nation in the world, not because of it's commerce or military prowess... but because it's citizens are the least likely to rebel against government. they've been drugged with just enough freedom, just enough standard of living, just enough education... to let them lead satisfied / ignorant lives as worker bees. why do colleges exhibit more political activism per capita? because college is academic... educated... and smart ppl know what's happening to them. the number of college educated ppl today is higher than in the past, but we're still not on par with the rest of the world... are we still #14 as far as world education goes? maybe worse. i think that's actually the main problem. america is stooopiderest than ever! here's a drastic measure... make it so no one can reproduce unless they pass extensive testing... then mandatory birth control / abortion for the rest. the whole goal is to create a generation of extremely intelligent independent minded children. i see a really big picture and so it would take a longer time than i am willing to spend 2nite to explain all of it. so i'll just stop here... not that anyone really cares. i just hope ppl know that i'm out here, thinking and observing what goes on... soaking up information anyway i can... and constantly drawing patterns in my head. it's ok... it's ok to think of these things. i'm thinking of possible solutions too... cuz patterns reveal that there's a staggering imbalance in the advancement of technology and science when compared to the advancement of sociology. social scientists unite!

listening to sloan:: don't you believe a word

*sigh... i stayed up too late again. what's wrong with me? grrrrr...

anyhow i doubt you're reading this, cuz blogspot is down. this is just a big wake up call, to make my own damn webpage. cuz apparently they're not having any problems. or better yet, just do what jason said, and when i do have a web page, then just don't bother with blogger... then again, blogger does have some nice archiving features. arg! i wish i knew perl, or cgi scripting, or even java2! some pretty dorky wishes eh?

listening to mouse on mars:: actionist respoke

i've been thinking it out. from now on, collaborations will file under "robokoneko" and solo will file under "kubrick" (for me) and "numera" (for neu). no, not stanley kubrick the director. kubrick, after the lego characters. keeps the theme. building blocks, very quantasized, simple, cubic, and there's a childish learning element to it i think. robokoneko by the way breaks down into "robot+child+cat" so it's actually robotic kitten, ala japanese. it was a nick name given to a project concerning CBM's or Computer Brain Machines. machines that were literally built to emulate neuron connections like that of human brain and even learn to interact and thrive/adapt in an environment. really quite interesting. i recommend doing a search for it sometime. anyhow... today, on rena's birthday... kubrick is here!

a website is soon to follow, with flash animations and of course a very nice "cube" like layout haha... time to learn/download some 3D rendering engines for flash. hmmm... so let's see... so far there are two bands on the robokoneko label and then the robokoneko project itself.

1. numera
2. kubrick
3. V/A robokoneko... comprised of collaborations between none other than numera and kubrick... a lot to remember huh?

me = dork

listening to fishmob + erobique:: tocotronic

damn... i stayed up too late last night, then i woke up at 2 and now i can't think of what to do... and when i remember what to do, it's too late to get it done anyway. argh! my ego is zilch today...

current ego = zilch

i looked up ego in the merriam webster dictionary the other day. cuz a friend asked me what it was. to tell the truth i had forgotten. but when i read the definition, it all came back to me. i made a huge philosophy of life based off of the definition of ego. and now, somehow it comes to mean (for me) the fidelity of thought to action. but this is hypocritical... for a different reason. you see, in order to debate a point, i believe everyone has to be speaking english or at least the same language. the problem is when ppl debate abstracts, they often make up their own definitions, and nothing is accomplished if two ppl are arguing about two different things when they're using the same words. it's stupid. and so, i have to either find a word that means "the fidelity of thoughts into action" or make up a new term. for now, i'll make a new term...

hmmm... something with "resolution"... ummmm... "thought resolution"... simple enough, i think.

and so...

current "thought resolution" = zilch

there. i hate having loose ends floating about. or "holes" in logic. yuck! it's a pet peve of mine. anyway, today sucks! i think i'm going to arlington later and picking up some 50cent schooners of bud light at perroti's. $1 and i'm drunk. damn! arcade games are more expensive than that! me = cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeap date ladies! haha, so drop me a line some time baby. was that smooth? oh ya... it was smooooooooth.

listening to myself:: trying to just get a song out, but it's not working...

this is where mastery of at least one instrument would really come in handy. jason says... "just get out the song and work out the details later". but if you can't even get one peice of the song out in under 10minutes, then it's really quite difficult. that's cuz while i try to match the notes with what's in my head, i forget the other parts and i'm left with just one part and i forgot where i was going with that part, and what other parts were going to work with it and how. i want to make a song... just one. i haven't given up though. learn learn learn... must learn. all i know is that i have hundreds (yes hundreds) of melodies buzzing around my head and i have to get them out! is everyone like this? i know that ppl dream differently. i know i do. is it the same with music? with all abstracts?

today is rena tanaka's birthday! yay! today she is the same age as myself ( 21 ). as far as superficial things go... like voice and looks... she is not only THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRL EVER, in my opinion. she is the only girl in the world i've ever seen, who is beautiful from all angles, in all situations, at all times of the day, eating, jumping, on a rollercoaster, caught off guard, early in the morning no make up and no sleep for 3 days, in every respect, no matter what. which is impressive, cuz i usually find something. on top of that, what personality does show through in the interviews and behind the scenes footage i've come across, is beautiful and alluring as well. the past 2 years that i've been aware of her, i've never once found anything about her un-attractive... and i have a ridiculously huge amount of her files and the majority of her commercials on my computer to scrutinize... and if that weren't creepy enough, i would willingly buy each one of her 4 movies (although not all of them are out on vcd/vhs yet) even though i don't speak japanese, AND her photobooks as well. i'm obsessed, but i don't care. i knew i was obsessed when i realized that i can look at a page of japanese kanji and pick out her name (i don't know ANY kanji!)... and you know that jibberish you see when a page is in a different language and your browser can't display it??? well, i know what her name looks like in that jibberish as well. i'm pretty psychotic about this huh? but it's all worth it cuz my life seems pretty sad to me, but when i see a picture of this girl, i can't help but cheer up and smile... i almost laugh. i can't think of anything ,save a few choice songs, that have that effect on me... and i eventually build up an immunity to the effects of a song... so there. that's my tribute to rena tanaka. if you want, you can find pictures of her online if you just type in "rena tanaka pic" on any search engine. or there's a yahoo fanclub as well. much love to you on your birthday rena!

listening to ????:: a lucid nation

i'm not sure if "a lucid nation" is the song or the artist... i sort of scammed it off the skam site. this song is great... cheesy in just the right amount and childishly simple lyrics of failed love. i seem to like those kinds of lyrics. i remember that's one of the reasons i liked the rentals first album so much... most of the songs were about failed love. perfect... i can relate to that. and not like country songs where it's someone leaving you and taking your stuff and the song is just shit. no no no... it's about not being able to get love in the first place. which ever since high school... was me. i've thought about it, and i wouldn't be in this situation if i hadn't futzed around so much after high school. it's like that saying about "when you have a girlfriend, you always have a girlfriend... but when you don't, you never will.". which is sooooo true. i think it's cuz girls can smell (literally) when a guy is in a relationship and then it attracts them. i remember i had reserves of girls and then i let them run out (bad bad bad idea). after ching ching, there was jenn-e (which actually, i'm kinda glad that didn't go anywhere)... but there was also vicki (victoria). and she was beautiful! and she had a brain! really smart, and i could sit down with her in my arms and just weave this beautiful blanket of words around her, and she would reciprocate, and in those moments we connected and i was happy and we could lose ourselves in eachother... but then she got a boyfriend while i was indecisive about who i really liked. still... there was a day when she showed up at my apartment (the first one i had after graduation). she had a boyfriend, and i was just cleaning up. i wasn't going to do anything. and she just wanted to sit in the apartment, while i was working. didn't want me to go out of my way to make her comfortable. she started reading a "bone" comic... and finished it! it was a compilation of the first story arc... like 8 comics long! and i of course was, my cool and unaffected self cuz i was really really really a collected and calm person back then. i knew that she just liked being there, with me... despite having a boyfriend (who was a goof and a loser by the way... eat shit dave! or bill! i forget which one he was... think it was dave maybe.). i should have just kissed her and told her i loved her right there... but i didn't. it's the only one of my "relationships" i genuinely regret. i ask about her, if and when i run into a past acquaintance. apparently she had a violent break up with her boyfriend, and then i found out that she was working 2 blocks away from my next apartment. i went for 2 weeks whenever i had the chance to see if i could run into her. i just wanted to get some sort of closure out of it. say "hey, back then... in the apartment, when you had a boyfriend, and i was finishing moving in... i wanted to... but i didn't, and i'm sorry.". that's it. as shy a person i am now, i could do that without hesitation. i tried to write to her, but my letter returned. the forwarding address was out-dated. i'll try again one day.

the last straw was dusty. i met dusty through nick and jason. but it's weird, cuz i wasn't really friends with either of them at that time. you ever, have ppl you feel like you should be the best of friends with, but you're not sure why? well, nick and jason are like that for me. and we're all good friends. well, on that night, none of us really knew eachother other than nick and jason and asshole (brad)... maybe tony was there too. dusty, flossy, and i were uninitiated to these ppl though. anyway, natalie-the-psycho-bitch was my girlfriend at the time, and that meant no friends for me. i remember one time natalie and i were working at drug emporium as cashiers and dusty came in looking as cute as ever in a green hoodie, and she'd just bleached her punky oi haircut... very cute. well, natalie beleived every girl wanted me and would constantly bitch me out about it. i remember dusty spotted me. than ran over and jumped me from behind in a "guess who" situation. i knew it was her though. we engaged in some "how have you been?" chit chat, and then she gave me a really big hug and left. all the time i'm being monitored by fatal attraction two check-out boothes down. there was no end to the bitching after that. i sort of became best friends with dusty to spite natalie and to prove a point... initially anyway. natalie had a friend, charlie... who was trying to convince her that i was an asshole and she should dump me, cuz he'd had a crush on her for 2 years and blah blah blah. i knew this, but did the golden rule thing "he's your friend, and i trust you... so you can do whatever you want. i love you.". she never picked up on this as a lesson in how i wanted to be treated though. i never cheated on natalie. although i think she deserved it in retrospect, but then again i don't really see anything wrong in what ppl call "cheating" nowadays... still i've never done it. she pleaded and begged me to quit being dusties friend. she was thoroughly convinced that i wanted dusty, and dusty wanted me. in the back of my mind, when we were fighting so much, i genuinely considerred it. this was a battle of principle for me though. so i would never cheat to prove that bitch right ( i really should have). well, dusty remained as a friend and natalie moved onto teenage pregnancy with some loser in dallas. her kid is gonna be all fucked up though, cuz she's gonna imprint all of her self esteem problems onto it. i hope i'm wrong on that....
ANYWAY... after natalie, cammie, ching ching, jenn-e, and even the vicki regrets... dusty and i still teetered between best friends and love. sometimes we would both admit at the same time. i remember the last time, she said "well, why don't we just get together?"... and i held my normal position that it wouldn't work out. she was very sex crazed at the time, and on the rebound. i have this rule about the other person being their normal self... so that i can be with who they really are. it's really a shame, cuz i knew who dusty really was... i had known her for 4 years by then. i turned down the prospect for the last time. she said that maybe one day she would marry rich. a month after that, she did marry rich. and she dumped me as a friend. i wonder if she only kept me as a friend, cuz i was a possible boyfriend. she always ended up with assholes... and i'm not an asshole... and i would have been good for her. and that's it. that was my last reserve.
maybe if i got another girlfriend, then i would somehow be thrown back into that world. building up another reserve. i don't think i'd mess it up this time though. my problem is mainly that i'm not attracted to a large portion of girls. especially, if they appear like cheer leaders or preppy college girls (80%)... i think the oldest i would date would be 23 and the youngest 17... and i'm just now 21... ok my b-day was 6 weeks ago, but it feels like new... and 21 sounds so old to me. i think the best way to meet girls like this would be through college or if i still had ties to the high school punk scene. i think maybe i should have an apartment that would become the "party place" for the weekends. high school and college, emo/punk/eccentrics. that would be nice...

ok... well, i become responsible soon. gotta sleep for my life as a worker :((